Time Traveling to the past

No, I didn’t really time travel to the past… But, as I was cleaning up my room, a found a little book.

The book’s for people to put in their signatures and whatnot; like what the day is, hobbies, and anything at that time.

I’m looking through it and realize that the book was signed by a bunch of people in 2002. I find my signature and can’t help but smile at how the years could change someone how much. Here’s what I had wrote:

Name: Rizza Bagnol
Address: (You don’t need to know what )
Phone: (Don’t need to know what either, but it hasn’t changed )
Favourite Colour: Blue, black, red
Birthday: November 12
Sun Sign: <insert some weird moon and star drawing here because I didn’t know what this meant )
Happiest Moment: October 5th, 2002
Hobbies: Racing, soccer, basketball
Most Embarrassing Moment: October 5th, 2002
Most Admirable Person: Justin, 50-50
Ambition: To become an architect
Best Friends: Cassy, Alissa, Mel, Nikki
Your Definition of Friend: A person who’s always there no matter what
Lines for Me: What? This is my autograph book o_O
Date: October 16th, 2002
Autograph: <insert my signature here>

Uh, yeah… I thought that was pretty cute. I was like… 12, I think? Anyway… As I keep looking there a bunch of blank pages and then there’s my signature again but it’s later on. Maybe a few years later… Maximum would be like two years later. Here’s what this one says:

Name: Rizza Bagnol
Address: _______________
Phone: _______________
Favourite Colours: Black, blue, red
Birthday: November 12
Sun Sign: Scorpio
Happiest Moment: October 5th, 2002
Hobbies: Writing, making up stories, going on the computer
Most Embarrassing Moment: _____________
Most Admirable Person: ________________
Ambition: To live my life
Best Friends: Melanie, Nicole, Alissa, Cassandra
Your Definition of Friend: A person who cares, helps, feels how you feel, and who’s there for you 100%
Lines For Me: Live your life, never stop imagining…
Date: ___________
Autograph: <insert my signature here>

To be honest, I have no idea what the hell happened on October 5th, 2002. It’s going to be bothering me now @_@

But the point is that, being who I am now, I can safely that I have changed a lot since 2002 and I just can’t believe that. Friends would tell me that I haven’t changed that much or say I’ve changed in my appearance. Well, I guess I still hold the same values I had before but for that other stuff… It’s changed.

I also noticed that my definition of a friend is like one would have for in a partner

Time seems to be going by faster and faster each day, don’t it?

New Year’s

Well, today is December 31st and tomorrow will be the dawning of the new year. 2009.

Now, time to be a spoil sport…

The year 2008 wasn’t the best of years. So far, it tops my list of worst years ever in the 18 that I’ve lived. I think the only great thing about this year was that I went to that NKOTB concert with two of my friends and spending time alone and away from my family… Yeah. I’m not a family person.

The first thing that happened to make 2008 the worst year I’ve had so far was around the second semester of my last year of high school. I have no idea what the hell happened but my “best friend” ditched me. Why? I think mostly because she was jealous that I was hanging out more with the other, real, best friend. There was three of us and she had a job and was just way to busy and thought that everyone had to go along with her schedule which only allowed to her be away from home about once every month.

Yeah, I’m totally going to not hang out with my other friends because she couldn’t.

The next to happen was college. Not to say that college was horrible, it just wasn’t as good as I had hoped. Moved in the dorms, thought that it would make things easier on me but really… It made me feel like a total outcast and loner. Everyone there drank almost all the time and made me feel like I had to drink to have fun. No one ever came to see/visit me unless they were drunk. So, of course, I kept to myself in my room and away from the scary drunk people who would often run up and down the hallways screaming like someone died.

And the last to happen that made this year bad for me was coming home for the Christmas break. I mean, I didn’t like staying in that room because I felt ignored but I loved being in that room because I got to be me, be alone.

I know, I sound like I want to become a hermit in the mountains when I grow up.

So, I decided to spend at least a few days at my friend’s house to lessen the amount of time I had to spend at home since the dormity was sneakily making people leave for the holidays. Now, what happens when I stay over at my friend’s house? I’m forced to go back home by “my parents” because they’re dumb fucks. They repeatedly tell me how embarrassing I am, how stupid I am, and how socially retarded I am and then expect me to respect them.

I don’t ever see myself ever respecting someone who has the idea that telling me that I’m stupid and they’re smarter because they’re older. To tell me how ugly I look when I cry. To tell me that I’m an embarrassment and wished that they never gave birth to me. To tell me how I’m not good enough for them unless I score 100% on a test even though I scored 96%.

God, I’m going on a rant.

But yeah, this year has been awful for me. Hopefully the grass is greener on the other side; that the new year’ll be a lot better than this one.